Well, okay, no.
I am not the busiest person in the world. But holy hell am I MAY AS WELL BE.
So, this is just to say, I am alive. I am well. I am not making boys fall in love with me. And the ones who I might've tried to coax into it wave to me from the hot tub in the courtyard and say Where are you off to in such a rush? Come on in! But I don't. I never do. Because even though my old roommate's ex-boyfriend (who is now my neighbor) looks like Jacob Black, and sits in that hot tub with an almost-degree in political science, I still just do not have time for him. And :( about that.
I am working my tail off planning events, writing press releases, being a top notch employee, researching for this new business transition and planning marketing strategies for a media avenue that I don't understand (but pretend to!)... and all of the shit is slipping at school because it's my senior semester, and GOOD NIGHT, I wouldn't wish any of this upon my worst enemy. It is tough stuff.
My parents have been in Israel for a month and while I think it's really cute that they think they can abandon me like that, it doesn't work that way. I have been a mess without them. I spoke with my mom on the phone the other day and cried. Just cried about the mess my life has erupted into since she has been gone. She, of course, was sympathetic and wonderful. Told me that anything I needed, she could help. But they stopped by Paris on their way home (eye rolls all around) and have "just been having the loveliest time!"And who knows when they're coming back now.
Jude Law has begun to realize the depth of my neediness. Recently, he told me "You're more emotional than you usually are. Lately, you've been letting your emotions rule you and I don't know. It's just not like you. Are you okay? What's going on..." Funny thing is, it's exactly like me, he has just never been in the eye of the storm like he is this go-round. Guess that's the way it goes when you have exactly ONE friend in the town you live. You become readable. Something I've never been before.
Anyway, I'm going crazy--crazy. Like I've never gone before. I don't know. Do we think it will pass?
And, you guys, how would you feel about a different blog? A fresh start. Is there anyone out there still reading this? I think it's time, don't you?
I read this! I check it all the time. It's very embarrassing. And then I get mad in my head about you not writing often enough. So. You can start a new blog if you want. I'll read that one too.
ReplyDeleteCourtney. Come on. You know we're reading. We can't stop. We check constantly and wait with baited breath for your next post. Do whatever you want, I'll follow you to the ends of the internet world.
ReplyDeleteI'm still reading yo. And you kick so much ass. I have all the envy for your ass kicking success.
ReplyDeleteI check your blog daily to see if you have written another something lovely. Will continue to read, wherever you may go.
ReplyDeleteMe!! Still reading and loving you.
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